Lovely Poem I Found...

Hello

I am Afraid

You say that you love rain,
but you open your umbrella when it rains…
You say that you love the sun,
but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines…
You say that you love the wind,
But you close your windows when wind blows…
This is why I am afraid;
You say that you love me too…

–Anonymous

~x~o~x~o~x~o~x~o~x~o~x~o~x~o~x~

What a cute poem (at least to me it does ^^), it touches me right to my core. It relates to my personal life of my understanding towards love. To be honest, in the subject of love, it is so abstract and frivolous however it can be straightforward in the way how someone may feel. Although I don’t have any experience in love, I can also see that love is so complex and can make a person all mixed up like a tornado. With love there is so many other feelings too e.g. jealousy. I think out of all my good friend group the only person who is actually dating is my friend Hoang. He and his girlfriend Kim are so cute couple err well Kim’s cute, not sure about H. Lmao but seriously they have been dating since sophomore year and now we’re seniors; it’s pretty amazing *0*.

I want a relationship like that <3 hopefully in the future~ Two my best friends said I would be the first in our group to have a boyfriend. (；￣Д￣） YEAH right! I mean really? I think both of my friends are real pretty~ (☆^O^☆) compared to me~ Not to mention there are alot of people who meets me for the first time think I am a little kid [○･｀Д´･○] So annoying I am gonna be 18 soon. Not to mention I ask several of my classmates/friends ‘if you didn’t know i (aka me (ange)) was a high school student what kind of student do you think I would be in?’ They all said ‘Elementary student’ .・゜゜・（／。＼）・゜゜・．I mean reallyy?!? fufufu I am so saddd…I am just a kid to them except for the fact I am older than more than half of them >3> I guess I know the type of guys who would be interested in me are pedos. lmao just kidding ;p And weirdos, somehow I always managed to attract a weirdo each year ⊙▂⊙ thank goodness they lose interest cuz of my awesome skillz of rejecting them. But this year I think it is harder since I nearly have the same schedule as him. To be honest I thought this dude like my best friend but somehow it’s directed to me instead? Sighh..it must be karma I was laughing and smirking at my friend when the dude was trying to her attention…I mean seriously out of all the female pop of my school he likes an eccentric person like myself. Something is wrong with him…and the past guys who liked me too. To be honest, he almost got me–luckily he’s a not a man to words. He once said something along the lines like wanting to be my hero and saving me in this card game (i was seriously losing =.=||, never play with 13 with super smart asian dudes)–buncha BS to me >.> He saved himself in the card game thus I lost. Mmm, more about him later. I realizes that I can get really uncomfortable around guys…so much for a relationship…more on that later too.

boing boiing boiiing Night ~

Thanks for Reading my boooring post^^ Have a Lolly

OP(old post)#2: Yule Log Cake/ Model Bridge

Another one of my old post, enjoy!

Aloha! (｡･ω･)ﾉﾞ

Have you ever heard of the Yule Log Cake? It is also know as Bûche de Noël（ ´∀｀）pronounced (BOOSH duh noh-EHL). It was created by a French pastry chef in late 18th century who came up with a great idea to replicate the yule log in the design of a cake. Yule log are used to carry out the tradition of celebrating Christmas and the winter solstice by burning the wooden log in the fireplace. It’s kind of similar to a roll cake, with it’s swirly shaped design.

My mom’s best friend, “auntie” bought a cake similar to the one below. I am so stupid, I was late to dinner and missed out on taking a picture on the cute yule log cake.（；￣д￣）Oh, well it’s okay I have some leftover of the cake ヽ(*⌒∇⌒*)ﾉ yay! The cake was certainly interesting, it was split into half: one part was chocolate and the other was green tea with sprinkles of azuki beans within the cream. Omg, I love both of them~ (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡ For some reason, my family members and auntie said that the chocolate one taste really sweet? haha, am I the only who likes it? At first I couldn’t decide on which one to try first cuz I love drinking tea (●♡∀♡) ~ and I also love chocolate esp. dark chocolate ♡＾▽＾♡

The one my auntie bought was similar to this one~

Oho, so I ask my mom to give one to me randomly♪ So I got green tea XD Sorry for the crummy looking picture –I realized that my phone is terrrible at taking pictures (>人<)

It was actually pretty sweet of my auntie to buy this delicious yule log cake♬ Considering the fact that my dad is without a job, it made Christmas a bit cheerier Hopefully my dad’s body can take speed recovery and get back to work ^^ If he doesn’t, then I might have to get a part-time job to help out the family. It would be a new experience though it might not be fun of course since it is work. ┐(‘～`；)┌

here’s is one side of my bridge, another to go!

My workspace is messy as you can see.

Work in Progress (´(エ)｀ )

This bridge is for MESA if you don’t know what MESA is, it stands for Mathematics Engineering Science Achievement it’s a program that help disadvantage students learn more bout math and science in a fun way~ (^(I)^) Also it helps students who want to become engineer, mathematician, or scientist; just so you know it’s not something I want to do in the future. fufufu（⌒▽⌒）, I am just doing this for fun~

I once had a dream about becoming an architect–dreaming bout designing Gothic Architecture ｡◕‿◕｡

Now that I think about thoroughly, I am not sure if this is my passion 【・ヘ・?】I think all these drafting and blueprints of the design would drive me insane! My mom said if i made a building of some sort, I would probably be risking peoples’ lives. (；¬д¬) What the heck?!? Sighh..hard to find some one who has faith in me and actually do believes in me, no matter what happen. If the people you trust can’t, who can you?

Anywho, have you heard of The Calling? If you haven’t check this song out It’s called ‘Wherever You Will Go‘. This is old song but one of my old favorite~

So cutee <3

Gotta Sleep, Byee (。-ω-)ﾉ

Old Post-Christmas~

An old post from my other blog~ I was meaning to upload this for a long time, so here enjoy :)

Aren’t these cute? I just found them (^(エ)^)

Anywho, MERRY CHRISTMAS~ or if you don’t celebrate Christmas, then Happy Holiday! This Christmas seems a bit bland and boring, mundane I must say (´Ａ｀。) It isn’t the same without my idiotic older cousin (he went oversea in Britain to study), somehow there is a lack of spirit and togetherness with my guy cousins w/o him…ehhh it’s isn’t to say I actually miss him. It is more like there is an emptiness in my grandparent’s place. Then again I was always a loner, fufufu（　´∀｀） nothing new at all. Somehow without my older cousin, my younger guy cousins doesn’t wanna hang out with me ((´д｀)) What the heck?!? Those punks…well I only wanna hang out with them to play a card game of 13. ヽ（´ー｀）┌ Do you know how to play 13? It’s hecka fun~

This year I didn’t get to bake much, unless you count the times I cook in Cooking class. To be entirely honest, I absolutely loathe and detested that class (¬д¬。) The actual part where I get to cook is fun but the cleanliness of the place is disgusting (since I had it first period) dirty dishes in the sink, ants crawling around the kitchen station >.> Utterly filthy…I would never take that class ever again. Cooking was actually more of common sense and using your brain to follow directions; however it turns out some of my group members are terrrible at reading (¬､¬) Somehow we manage to pass the class for the quarters. Thank goodness for our final we can choose different groups ＼(^▽^＠)ノ I was able to relax and chill out for once

Hmm, what else can I say about myself? Truthfully, I am not a normal person..but then again no one is perfectly normal, right? My good friends or what they like to called themselves my best friends –called me a weirdo, actually scratch that, one of my good friend said that I was #1 on her creepy friend list. (゜´Д｀゜) What the…? Why do I deserved that when me and her know that one of other friends is way creepier than me. Screw that, hmm, I would describe myself as an eccentric, book lover (actually any book that’s interesting, also comics/mangas), sometime drama watcher, amateur artist, knitter/crocheter, a fan of anything cute/kawaii (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡, music aficionado (｡’▽’｡)♡, tea lover and something other things as my hobbies. There is more things but I am sure I will blog more bout them.

New word that I learnt today Lissotrichous (li-SO-tri-kuhs): Adj. Having straight or smooth hair. Origin: It comes from Greek; “lissos” = smooth and “thrix” = hair. Some related words are cymotrichous (having wavy hair), trichotillomania (the compulsion to pull out one’s hair), and its end result atrichia (baldness).

What a big word right? Sure, is interesting (´･ω･`) I need to keep up on my vocabulary, so that my brain won’t die out from the lack of learning. Hmm, I would say that my hair type can be describe as lissotrichous since I am Asian, fufufu（　´∀｀） of course that’s isn’t true for all Asian though majority do have lissotrichous hair.

This is actually something that i wanted to test out on my computer, so please don’t mind it. hahah I learnt how to type the word fruit in korean. How cool~

열매 = fruit~

Thanks again for reading my first post, until next time ー( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

Look even more XD So cuteee~

Hello (●￣(ｴ)￣●)

How was your Christmas Day? :) If you don't celebrate Christmas, how's your holiday? I dunno somehow this year was pretty terrible and awful, it's not one of the worst year but hey it's somewhat live-able. All this stress from college applications and then the scholarships =.=|| I seriously don't want to do the scholarships even though tons of ppl have been telling me I should, but mann, I seriously hate writing essays (*≧m≦*) still it's free money ( ;Д;) wahh..there's goes free money.

Another reason why this year suck is cuz of all of those AP classes I have this year @.@||, mann I can feel myself getting drain from all the work I have to do this year. Not only I have to maintain my grades so I can get in a good uni ~ Did I tell I was in top 10 of class? fufufu, though I am rank 10 TT.TT cries* I hope I can keep it. I guess all those years of maintaining my grades and staying up late many many long night does pay off, hmm but it is worth that my body is tired and sore and weak? ehh..my mom said it's not worth it, it had done alot of damage to my health. Well, it's almost over I got couple more months and I'll be done~

This past summer, someone I admired had past away (´；д；`) For awhile, I was in shock about how this could have happen; but I realized thorough my tears.. I got to move on with my life, he won't be coming back. At least in the end, I have his music --I will forever cherish his songs. To tell the truth, the person I admired Isshi-san once said that "Death is the beginning of eternity.." so he is probably doing well in the afterlife--I am just sad that I never got to meet him, the person with such amazing voice that definitely touch my heart. Also this year, my dad lost his job :/ oyee even more pressure on to me to do well and get into a good uni. I think I might have to get a part time job soon. I hate growing up, so painful.. but sometime we just got to eh? hmm

On the bright news, kind of things I made a new blog --> http://ruriyuki.wordpress.com/ I find that wordpress is way easier~ So if you would please follow me ^^ I will follow back :) I think I might make Wordpress my main blog instead but occasionally I will update on this blog. Catchya later. ^.^
--R.

Nosy old geezers../love

fortunately their focus is on Uncle :D lolz, sorry Uncle it is better that the focus is on you rather than me XD. My grandma came over to my house today, she was talking bout how my Uncle isn't married yet and is worried about him whether he is going to be an old bachelor. Right now I think my Uncle is in his late 30s, I am kind of shock that he doesn't have a girlfriend right now. Most of my relatives keep pestering him about whether he is going to get marry and when and yada-yada. My relatives even try to help him set arrange-marriages and introduces their friends' unmarried daughters, still he try to avoid them through a loop. Which is why I think he moved to L.A. to get some peace and quiet from grandma and other pestering relatives. lol. He is living with my grandma's sister and her family where the old auntie try to introduce some nice girls to him but he blatantly said he has a girlfriend back home. What a lie! humm, it got my grandma agitated, she really wants grandkids. But then again, my dad was in his late 30s when he married my mom, their relationship has some rocky bumps but in the end they turned out okay.

My grandma was talking about how the lack of faith my Uncle has for love and marriage. He said he won't get married because he can't find the one and he doesn't want to marry some random lady and have the marriage fall apart with a divorce at hand. It is like he has no hope at all for love--that's so sad. How can he say that when he hasn't even been dating? Not to mention, he hasn't had a girlfriend for the past 3 years or more. Shocker. I am still young, (high school senior) and love can work if you just give it a chance and embrace it. If it doesn't work out, then it just means that you and that particular person are not meant to be together BUT it doesn't mean that you are destined to be lonely. It just means your special someone is out there in the big wide world, you just have to find that person. Kind of like treasure hunting, finding your upmost treasure, you can't expect it to be so easy if it was then everyone would find their special someone without going through such a tedious task of a thing called dating. Hopefully my Uncle will be able to find such a treasure :) there goes my theory about love~ hahah but seriously I don't really know anything bout love though o-o I never had a boyfriend nor fell in love, though i had crushes but once I seen their personality and personas-- it shattered my illusions of them. I read too much mangas/books watch dramas/movies, not all love is perfect sighh..which is why you give your best shot in trying to make it work. If I were Uncle, I would still give love a try, no matter, how many times it fails in the end love always work out in mysterious ways. heheh. But I am too young to be in relationship, too immature but one day when I am ready, I will be giving it my best shot and to woo him~ lol, woo is such an old-fashioned word, guess I am old.

New subject: Tumblr XD

I love my tumblr, it is soo much fun~ I swear I could be on it all day O.O scarryy. So many cute things and of course about my favorite bands~ jrock, visual kei *0* heheh and anything cool/interesting/funny etc. But seriously I need to focus on my schoolwork so I can actually graduate this year, lol, no I am not failing but I could be o-O if I am not too careful.

My tumblr: http://ruriyuki.tumblr.com/

If you follow me on my tumblr, I will definite follow you :D (as long you're not a creepo anything o-o) But then again, I might spam you alot but hey that's only when i have free time XD or maybe that when I am playing hooky not doing my homework TxT.

Until next time~

Frustration, Life?

11/7/11 Hello (*´；ェ；`*)
Sighh..today was just terrible (>_<) . Lol this is such an understatement （。＞。＜。）, I am so at lost in life and its meaning, not only that but also to my surroundings (◎_◎;) . Today, in cooking class, I got into an argument with this one girl (/□＼*)・゜. I hate having arguments, they always leave me in a bad mood for the rest of the day..but I swear she was blaming me when it is not my problem, and when I tried to help her nicely, she got all miffy and jerky with me (>.>) super pissed me off. I seriously want to get out my cooking class (┳◇┳), it is so mundane and dreary without any of my good friends, perhaps, I should have taken AP Bio..ehh, nahhh I don't really want any more stress for my senior year, I mean I still got college applications to do （x_x；）, holy mackerel sighh...plus i gotta manage my status.
By status I mean, I am in the top 10 of my senior class lolz, it is not that high I am only 10, at the bottom of the rung if I do poorly, I get kick off (TT.TT)I can't let that happen, I mean I don't really have cool officers status from school clubs eg president of Key Club etc. This is pretty much what I got left beside some other clubs that I am somewhat active in...I should have been more active in my school activities. Ahhh, I just hope I get into a good University/College. Wish me luck~
AP Art was better than I expected （*´▽｀*） though at times I get lonely ((´д｀)). Me and friend N. --we sit in an island far away from our other friends, when sometimes my friend N. has to leave art class because she has a tennis game, superrr saddd and lonely (´Ａ｀。)..well there is this one dude that sits diagonal from our group table, I am terrible at making new friends cuz I am superrrah shyy. But now, I think it gotten better? We communicate at least once in a while lolz though I think he likes to talk to N. better cuz she is more approachable I guess? loolz Right now I am doing watercolour on European pears that my teacher brought in from his backyard. Hopefully it can turn out nice ^_^
(｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡ I love winter, however, I just hate going to school on such a cooold day and also if it rains （ ＴДＴ） makes it a doubly horrid day. I would love to watch the coldness from a window, sipping my nice hot tea and just relaxing with a good book/manga or just drawing (●´∀｀●) hahah What bout you?
~Oh yah, i upgrade this blog, do you like? hmm, I was thinking of changing the template again, it's a bit too girly for me? hahah, i got another post, i was meaning to upload but never got the chance so yah, expect it soon--if i am not forgetful :D Catcha later, gotta sleep (。-ω-)zzz